i feel like i've been duped.
i feel like i bought into a fantasy that seems to be dwindling as each year passes. in my fantasy, women had jobs (gasp!), and they didn't stay home with the kids (gasp!), and they could get married if they wanted to, but not cause they felt like society was telling them to (gasp!), and when they punched a boy in the playground, it's cause the little shit deserved it. i never fantasized about my wedding. it just seemed silly to already know the details of a future engagement ring, the color and style of bridesmaid dresses, and the deal-breaking first dance. nevermind finding that ken.
i look at my friends..and even my friends' friends (thank you facebook), and it appears that i didn't share my fantasy with very many people. i don't judge those people--i want everyone to be their own version of happy. but..
am i jealous?
am i just changing my fantasy all together?
am i questioning all of this because i'm approaching the awesome age of 30?
am i curious about a life with one other person would be like?
or do i just want a puppy?
i know, they poop. everybody does.